Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Finding MY Balance

I've been having a hard time trying to figure out how to balance everything I've got going on and still find time to blog about pepito.  Nevermind study, clean the house, make sure our bank account is downloaded, sew for money, sew for friends, sew for self, sew for pepito, feed everyone, grocery shop, maintain friendships, etc.  I really have no idea how anyone does all this - I am certainly failing.   I am unbelievably overwhelmed by all that I have to do and feel guilty when I consider taking time to sit.

But this weekend, Sam took 2 hours for some him time and instead of wandering around the house accomplishing things or getting out my anatomy book to read the 200+ I have neglected, I sat down and played with my kid.  I completely forgot about the crazy to do list and had fun.  It was really awesome.  And I decided right then that a B in anatomy, a dirty kitchen floor, and fabric piling up was worth it.  William was so happy to have my undivided attention and we just giggled, clapped, and had a big time.  THIS is what life is about.

Now, of course, STAYING in this mindset is easier said then done.  But I've made a pledge to myself that I will play with him atleast ONCE everyday for atleast an hour and think of nothing else.  (this doesn't include all the time spent feeding him, keeping him entertained and LAYING down while I change his diaper, rocking him to sleep for naptime, etc.)  It probably doesn't sound like a lot - but it's how I plan to keep my life all together.  I mean, I can't make a C in anatomy - I'm not THAT student!! ;)

I definitely find myself wondering how in the world I hit the black hole when he was a newborn when I didn't have school to worry about.  Because I feel it creeping back every couple days and I'm just trying to keep my head above water.  Funny how things change - but being a new mom brought it's own challenges and I shouldn't forget that and discredit my black hole.  anyhow...

William is becoming such a cute kid.  So fun to be around.  Sam and I were sitting on the screen porch the other day because the weather was nice and it's hard to find time to have an actual conversation - William was crawling all around the living room happy as can be.  He made his way over to the french doors and was razzing and giggling at us.  Then, out of nowhere, he puts his mouth on the glass and razzes - mouth wide open - it was HILARIOUS!  I couldn't stop laughing, so he did it more!  It's so cute when he "figures" things out.

His crawling is getting out of control.  He's still on his belly and refuses to utilize his left leg - but that kid can MOVE.  If I leave the room - I never know where he's going to be when I come back.  It's so fun to watch him get around and he's obviously tickled with himself.  And he chases Burnie - adorable!!  Poor Burnie is in for it when pepito is truly mobile...she'll never get any rest!

A friend of mine is trying Baby Led Weaning, which I had never heard of before, but basically, you give the baby what you're eating and let them make a mess and try it on for size.  I think it might be easier if you already have children, because then there's a set dinner time that kind of thing.  We don't eat dinner until 8:00 usually and by then pepito is already in bed.  Plus - I'm not sure he would really want to eat soft tacos and I definitely don't want to clean up that mess...point being - we aren't exactly eating balanced meals.  But I did buy some bananas, apples, cucumbers, and broccoli yesterday at the store to start to give him at lunch.

The bananas were a disaster - first he was choking on the bigger sticks, so I cut them up into tiny pieces and I think he sat on more banana then anything.  So, later that afternoon, I cut up an apple (no skins) and he seemed to really enjoy that.  He gnawed and gnawed on them and I think some it may have actually ended up in his stomach.  We'll see.  I'm not into a big mess - Sam is against it mostly because then it'll just be ONE more thing I have to clean to up and deal with - but doesn't William need to learn how to eat with his hands?  We're trying it out - even if it's only at lunch and not necessarily what we're eating.  To each their own I guess.

Oh - but I think he might be ready for finger foods, as evidenced by the following pictures.  I turned for 2 seconds to grab a baby spoon and this is what happened.


1 comment:

Family Oliver said...

I've pretty much mastered how best to clean up after 2 little ones that are self-feeding. I find the biggest bib I can find (you can make these easily with scrap fabric), cut all their food into bite size peices (chicken, broccoli, fruit for example) and let them go to town. I give them each a toddler fork which promptly lands on the floor. I'm garrenteed about 15 minutes as they stuff their faces. After they're done (they sign "all done") I use a dish rag to get the big chunks off then I sit them on the side of the kitchen sink to wash faces/hands. Then I spray their trays into the sink as well. Clorox Free spray on the high chairs and we're done! It's crazy messy but I've learned to deal. It's just too much work to sit there with them to make sure every little spoonful lands perfectly in their mouths. :)

Since their bedtime is early 7:00-7:30, we don't eat as a family except on weekends when Jace is home.

I've had to become okay with getting a B as well. It sucks but that's where I'm at, I'm a mom with a lot on my plate. Mediocrity in school IS okay or that's what I keep repeating to myself.

I feel you, Meghan.


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